For quite some time I have considered myself to be more or less a geek. After all, I watched Star Trek: The Next Generation religiously, and spent quite a few Saturday nights watching two hours of Doctor Who on public television as a teen. When I was young I was obsessed with reading comics and even started back reading them several years ago.
But recently I’ve come to the realization that I’m not really a full fledged geek. I’m more of a quasi-geek. While I do read comics from time to time, I only stop by the comic shop every three or four months to pick up the stack that has accumulated in my box. And while I’m there, I have very little desire to sit around and talk comics with the other folks there. And by “very little” I, of course, mean “none”.
I didn’t see Iron Man in the theater, and I’ve only recently watched part of the dvd version that I got for Christmas. And I’m not sure when I’ll get around to watching the third Spider-Man movie.
I’ve played in several D&D games during recent years, but once I quit the last game I was in I found myself relieved to not have to keep a character updated. I might have just gotten burned out on it and could catch the gaming bug again after some time off. But as it stands now, I don’t really have any desire to get back into it.
And don’t even get me started on Star Wars.
It seems to me that I’ve always been into geeky stuff just enough to be weird but not into it enough to want to participate in the whole geek community thing. I’m a little too geeky for the mainstream crowd but not geeky enough for the geek crowd.
I suppose the real root of my dilemma could be that I just don’t like being around people (geeky or otherwise). But that sounds like some sort of personal problem that I would probably need to work on, so I’m going to assume that isn’t the case and get back to over-analyzing the situation.